Sad

It is crazy to think that in just a few short months my sister will not have been with us for 18 years.  It is so hard when  you realize that the years don't make it any easier it makes it harder.  It seems memories just fade.   The only real person that I can talk about Leslie too is Debbie or Mom.  No one else just seems to want to talk about her.  I have tried and tried to get memories about Leslie and facebook has been amazing at that.  Finding some of her old friends has helped.  I really need to paste some more onto her myspace page.  I just wish the family would add more.  I have had people tell me yes I will write them down. How many years is it going to take.  I really just want to think of my sister and remember all the wonderful things.  Since I was robbed of being her sister in adult hood I do not have many great memories of my sister.  She was just mean to me.  I just remember her being mean and us fighting all the time.  I just have a few good memories of her. Many of her friends and close cousins are the one's with the good memories and trying to get them to share them is hard and I just wonder if it will ever happen.  Oh well.  I had my moment to vent my frustration.  I just can pray one of these days family will start sharing there memories of her before it fades from us.